2016年1月21日 As time passes

It has been awhile since I've last posted anything. So much for having Repugnant Thoughts Everyday. It's a good thing I changed it to "Everyday?" instead of "Everyday." The distinction matters, at least in my opinion, but then again whose opinion really matters beyond my own? I write one-sided articles for disembodied readers. It's not like I can see what your face looks like, or determine your level of understanding. Everything is just my thoughts alone and perception of others' thoughts. No, I really can't say for sure if my opinion matters more than another here. My opinion is the only one present, but that doesn't imply that my opinion is right or wrong or that is it the dominant opinion. It just is; therefore, I'll just get to it.

For awhile now I've been wondering about life. Obviously being away from blogging gives one time to do those things. Unfortunately sometimes I circle back to the darkest and most fucked up things on the internet. Efukt is one of those things.

www.efukt.com is basically the ogrish/live-leak of porn. But I'll let them explain themselves with their own words:

Adult humor for adults, Makers of Lulz. Shocking Humor, Porn bloopers, Porn Fails, Cam Whores, Amateur Porn and more.

No surprise in terms of what you'll see, such as the woman who can prolapse her vagina to reveal her cervix. I am not joking here folks. You can see it here HERE (NSFW).

Should I bother having kids?
After seeing that vid on efukt?

In any case, it should be noted that when I watch videos like this, I wonder if it's even necessary to reproduce. Certainly like kind of behavior is going to continue, but it makes me wonder.  

Whose daughter is that? Whose son (or daughter) is the cameraman? Why would people pay to watch this?! What happened in this woman's life where this is something she is willing not only to do, but to do it on camera?

When I ask these questions, and do not explore answers, I still come to the same conclusion: if this is the risk I run of being a parent - having kids like this - I might as well not ever have children, in spite of the fact that I would like them.

As I get older, not much wiser, and even more confused, I run the risk of never coming to any significant conclusions other than: I will pay taxes (one way or another), I will probably continue work/study and eventually stop, and I will die. The latter of which is probably the only real guarantee in life, at least as the present moment.

Beyond those things, I can't really the time I've spent away has been wasted from this blog. I can't at this time discuss anything that's going on in my life, so I'll just go over some of the less personal things that are happening.

Some of the stranger things that have happened to me over the recent years was being able to see Gary Numan, whom I've written about before here on this blog, but rarely tours these days.

Beyond that I got drunk with a neighbor, and in street on the way home from a bar we grappled in the street. I didn't realize my knee was hurting until I went to bed that night.

I guess that about sums up my life: What happened to a woman who needs to show off her prolapsing vagina, Gary Numan, and grappling.