2012年1月20日 "Fuck" #004

Yes, your life sucks

When someone tells you, "Never pet a burning dog." You really shouldn't do it.

I stayed up all night, because I couldn't sleep due to my knee. As always I try to figure out the most difficult way to solve it, so that I can deal with life. It doesn't always work.

"I get off work around noon, then I'll duck out and force myself to get a decent night's rest!" I thought blissfully focusing on the concept of sleep, until I realized that I had class later today.

And I must attend that class.

Fuck...

So I have to stay until around 2 pm, getting home around 3:30 pm if I'm lucky. As for my knee, it's getting to the point where I can't go throughout the day without it demanding my attention at least 20-50 times a day, and that's an approximation! 

Fuck it.
At least I'm not Keanu Reeves.

2011年8月12日 "Fuck" #003

I usually don't like making posts that use such language. Okay well maybe half of the time. Actually it depends on how I'm saying it and why, so I guess about a 1/5 of the time. But that other 80 percent fucking deserves it.

Recently I got news about an abroad program. I was accepted, but I didn't receive a scholarship, which more or less makes the final decision on whether or not the program is financially do-able. Part of me was devastated, as this really puts my career goals in a bind, if not trash. As for the other part of me, I couldn't help but laugh inside, thinking that somehow I deserved this. The way this affected my career goals just made me laugh more due to the seriousness. 

The smile didn't come off my face for awhile, although when it did, I could only frown for a bit. Yet  all the while when I thought about how other things* in the world were going, I could help but smile and laugh inside again, thinking "Fuck." the whole time.

 

The above video is a literal interpretation 

of what I'd like the voice of my laughter be 

along with gestures and mannerisms.

*Take your pick
Appeals court rules against Obama Healthcare Law
http://ca.news.yahoo.com/appeals-court-rules-against-obama-healthcare-law-171829777.html
State Fair mugger targeted whites: 'easy targets'
http://www.wlsam.com/Article.asp?id=2260004&spid=
Rockford removes streetlights to save money
http://www.wlsam.com/Article.asp?id=2260122&spid=
Postal Service to cut 120,000 jobs
http://www.ibtimes.com/articles/197059/20110812/postal-service-considers-cutting-120-000-jobs-agency-nearing-default.htm
World is witnessing financial WWIII – Max Keiser
http://rt.com/news/finance-war-usa-banks/

Just take your pick. Hahaha

2011年6月4日 "Fuck" #002

Uh, thanks?

A 30 degree drop or change in temperature, plus stress equates to continued pain in the knee. It's just a brutal pain. Waking up to this shit is annoying. As the time says, it's roughly around 2:30 in the morning, and for the past hour outside of reading the news - and porn, albeit not read - I have been having a hard time focusing on anything that requires me to learn something new by average exertion of thought and skill. Basically, I can only fucking zone out or complain, which is what I'm doing now amazingly.

The worst part about this joy-killing pain, is that the enjoyability of intercourse is not possible at times. For all you dudes out there, better fucking hope you don't get arthritis in the knee, or in the hip for that matter. 

Not being able to fuck in itself is a repugnant thought.
Not being able examine things which are repugnant is a repugnant thought.

2011年5月27日 "Fuck" #001

There are some things in life that genuinely merit such commentary, or said expression.
"Fuck." Happens to be one of those things that works well with just about anything, and frankly those who choose not to say it, ought to think of some variant, like "Shitting in Tupperware!"
It should not surprise anyone that some people have apparently attempted it - shitting in Tupperware.
Go fucking Google it [link], as one should never take my word for it!

Today is one of those days that make me feel like, "Fuck this sucks."
I had intended to write about my adult ESL fuckers, but in the end I am writing about the quality of life since my knee is negating all potential patience. The burning just makes me a grouchy-fucker, and quite snappy. I cannot drive very well when my knee hurts, because I cannot focus on potential dangers.
More depressing is that I cannot even get that far if I cannot get into a goddamn car.

An accurate representation of pain.

Today is a "Fuck." day.